Why this Blog?

First off, I have to confess, I'm not a very maternal person. When I was in college and later, I rarely went gooey eyed over other people's kids, even if they were cute. I liked chatting with them when they were a little older - say 3 or 4 - but just for a bit. I never imagines I'd be so ga-ga over my kids that I'd blog about them in two places!

Life really changed when my son, little A was born. I wasn't ready to have kids when we conceived. like the majority of first born kids, he was an accident and then since we were older first time parents ( for India anyway), we went through with it.

My husband A on the other hand has always loved kids. Even when we were dating, when he looked all goo-goo eyed over my shoulder I knew it wasn't a pretty girl but some baby he was staring at. He was thrilled by the prospect of becoming a dad and had been ready for it for ages.

I didn't instantly fall in love with my son when he was born, either. It took a while for me to understand him and relate to him as a person rather than as a baby, and I have blogged about it at my other blog and will probably post it in here one of these days.

However, over time, I don't know how but he and later his sister, little a, have crept into my heart and created such a huge space for themselves that it surprises me. Every day when I call and hear my son's voice on the phone, my heart melts a little. Each time my daughter sways her hips from side to side or manages to say 'mamma', I turn all mushy inside. It's almost impossible to explain to people who don't have or don't want kids, the immeasurable joy that they bring in along with their dirty diapers and crayonned walls. I mean, did you ever think you'd change stinky diapers as a matter of course? Anyone whose potty-filled diapers you change and still hug and kiss at the end of the exercise has got to be special, right?

I was trying to find a metaphor for life with versus sans kids and came up with it yesterday, which explains the title of this blog - life without kids is like half a rainbow - missing so many hues.